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So it has already been a month since fall semester has started.

It seems the last time I updated was in May and a lot has happened since then. During summer, well all I did was work and take an online science class. Went pretty well. After they returned I took my own vacation for 5 days. Went to girlfriend's parents house. Good times, helped her father build parts of the railing on their porch. One or two days later she broke up with me. Then school began. Since then I've just kinda lost "me." She doesn't know but to me she was my rock, my life. I just have this emptiness that just can't be filled. All the talks of the future is gone and I feel lost. Its to the point where I can't even concentrate on my classwork. All my grades are down pretty bad. I just feel like I need to clear my room of everything just to refresh myself. Its been a month and yet I'm still having a hard time getting over it all. I know it'll take time but I just wish it would hurry.

Just trying to update right now is hard cause I can't think clearly. I just want to see my mother and be held by her. Gonna see her next month but with ex. She loves my mother and my mom and stepdad loves her too. The only difference now is that they finally know that I'm gay but only after we've broken up. Which I wish I had the courage to tell them earlier cause that was one of the reasons she did what she did.

Anyways so far with school, I've started on transfer applications to several different schools. I will also be taking three SAT subject tests in November, hoping it'll boost my profile and all. I just want to get away soon and fast. Summer could not arrive fast enough, well its not quite over yet but still wishing for summer of 2012 to arrive so I can move out already. Well this is all I've got for now.